the one i've rewritten a hundred times.

this is about to get real, open, and honest.  [if you want, you can start here.]
tomorrow i will be going to hopefully work out some things and i'm asking for any good vibes, best wishes or prayers you want to send my way.
you see, over the last year and a half i've been struggling with anxiety.  i had had some in my past so i told myself it was just stress.  i was convinced that by the next month i'd 'be better', feel normal, that the anxiety would go away.  month after month came and went with no signs of getting better.  i felt upset, angry, and frustrated.  and anxious.  it was hard.  day after day it was hard.  on the outside i looked happy, probably normal to most people.  typically inside i was struggling and trying to just keep calm.
over the months i've gone to different doctors and counselors looking for solutions. many times i felt discouraged and wondered if the Lord would ever let me overcome this trial. but over this year i've come to learn many things.  my list would not even begin to do justice the things that i've witnessed and learned within my heart.  i guess most importantly i've been reminded that God is real.  that God is love.  and that God is always there.
my struggles are far from over.  whether it's struggles with anxiety or other things that come to me in this life.  i guess i've just come to accept that.  but i've had countless people who have been my support.  they've been my strength at times when i struggled to find my own.  during this last general conference elder holland gave a talk specifically on emotional disorders.  it was a miracle really.  another reminder that God has heard every single prayer.
and so i face my future, and tomorrow, with hope.  i can do hard things. and i will, through the grace of Jesus Christ, overcome.