the hill by the clyde.

i had class on campus monday. 

the mark of being halfway done with student teaching.

as i walked across back home i had a lot of thoughts, yet felt rushed and hurried. 

but i suddenly stopped.  

and sat down on the hill by the clyde and began to write. 

about how i was feeling overwhelmed and discouraged.

not really knowing my place because i didn't really feel like i belonged anywhere anymore.

about all the things that seemed to be going wrong. 

how i just didn't know what to do or where to go.

i walked home with tears in my eyes.

i figured the only thing i knew to do was try to serve someone else.

helping me to think outside myself for a while was the only solution i could see. 

so it was, a simple note to derek and a candy on his pillow.

but that night i felt inspired to ask derek for a blessing.

it was profound, and inspiring, and perfect.

to me, it was a miracle. exactly what i needed.

a reminder that i really am cared about.

and that i have a Father in Heaven that knows every single detail and worry and struggle.

with tears in my eyes i felt peace and comfort and love.

the past two days have been the happiest i've had all semester.

there are certainly some factors that have changed.

but i'd say that it's mostly my attitude doing a 180.

understanding that i am a daughter of God.

and that His plan for me is perfect.

all because of that simple little moment of stopping on the hill by the clyde.