content.

i've wanted to write.  really, i have.  i questioned where to start, wondered what to say.

these past months have been full of struggles.  things that i didn't fully know how to deal with.  there were times that the path seem really clouded over, i didn't know which way to go.  i asked a lot of questions.  sometimes wondered why.  but the most important one i found was, "what am i supposed to be learning?"

sometimes i'd say, 'okay, i think i'm good.  you could just tell me the lesson already.'  many nights were filled with tears and frustration.  but most often, i was filled with faith.  not answers, but that these struggles really are part of the plan.  that there is something greater up ahead.

the most important thing that i've learned though, is that my Heavenly Father hears every. single. prayer. i was never left alone, no matter how alone i felt sometimes.  He cares about every detail, every little thing that i'm feeling or facing.  the times that seemed the hardest were always filled with the most love.  and you know what else i've learned, that i am a brave person.  that i can do hard things.

so i guess what i'm trying to say is that i still don't have the full path laid out in front of me.  i still have my days that are hard.  but more than ever i feel content.  that this is the plan.  i feel happy with where i am because i can see progress, i'm learning to understand.  and i am so loved.