sometimes i want to open up my heart and lay all my feelings out on the table. i go to write, and nothing comes out right. but i feel it.
there's been a lot inside of me lately. adjustments to a new life. learning to calm my fears and worries. sometimes overwhelmed, other times unsure. grumpiness, imperfections, wanting to understand everything right now.
but more so, there are feelings of love. an overwhelming sense of gratitude that often brings me to tears. patience and kindness and understanding. a feeling of peace. and a realization that i still have a lot to learn about who i am.
i've tried to let all my expectations go. i'm learning to embrace the every day. trying to think more outside of myself. realizing there's more ways to do things than just "my way". communicating how i really feel.
what a great opportunity to learn. i hope i always appreciate this life for the learning experience that it is. i was reminded that i'm here to learn how to be like my Savior, Jesus Christ. and the only way to do that is to accept the challenge to become better. and it will be a challenge and a lot of work. but it will be well worth it.
and those are some of my thoughts inside.
you are such a beautiful person Ashley. I love ya. I miss ya. :)
ReplyDeletelove your honesty in this post. I have that same overwhelming sense of gratitude for my beautiful life.
ReplyDeletethank you so much for your sweet, sweet comments on my Hungry for Healing posts. I very much appreciate you! I'm your new follower. :)
Don't worry it will get easier. I was such a grump and complained a lot my first six months of marriage. I even had minor depression. It is a really hard adjustment sometimes. I know you'll get through! Just keep telling yourself to keep trying to be happy and look for the good. I know you will cause you are the kind of person that never lets anything get you down! Love ya!
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